I’ve always wanted to keep a journal, of some sort… but found that I never lasted more than a week. So this time, I’ve decided to work on creating an online account of my family’s daily life, struggles and joys. I am what you might call, a desperate housewife! I work as a teacher two days a week, and work at home for my family the rest of my waking hours. This is a job I’ve always wanted and fought so hard to have.

Someone asked me the other day, “So, did you ever think this job would be so hard?” My answer, was most certainly, YES!! I’m am a realist. I don’t generally believe that my life is any better or easier than anyone elses. But what I had no idea, when I began this delightful journey of motherhood, would be how absolutely exhausting and consistent it is. So, I answered, yes, I did think it would be hard. But I honestly thought in my heart of hearts that I would get a break every now and again.

But, veteran mom’s, as you chuckled at my last line, now so do I. I’ve been let in on our dirty little secret. Mom’s do it all, and I mean all! Dad’s are wonderful, pull their weight in a lot of areas, and love their kids more than life itself, but mom do it all.

We are a special group of women, us moms. We do it all, cry in private, and put on our best, “I can do anything” face and step out into the world. We do it all, or at least try to.

I have two children, Bro who is 2.5 and eClaire who is 1. I have been pregnant or nursing literally since September 2003. My husband has been working like a dog on a job assignment for the last year and a half. His work hours began at aprox. 11 a.m. and went until around 2 a.m. So he slept until 9 or 10 in the morning. Just recently he was promoted. He will begin working days with a few similar days off as me at the end of March. I couldn’t be more thrilled! Finally we will have time to spend as a whole family eating dinner, going to the park or just reading books. And husband and I will time together as a couple away from the kids!

I’m weeks away form weaning my daughter, a month away from my husband’s new hours, and ready to take my life back. This is the Year of Me! I’m going to loose those last 8 pounds I’ve been holding onto since my last pregnancy and tone up my body. I recently dyed my hair brown, I’ve bought a few new clothes, and brand new makeup. and I’m on the verge of taking back some time for myself.

I turn 30 next week and now believe that I have to pick and choose what I do for my family, so my need get fostered too. First on the agenda, a manicure and pedicure with a friend tomorrow afternoon!

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