Overwhelmed, need a vacation.
This has been quite a year month for us. Boy, what a year month! Aside from a party, anniversary, and general summer hoopla, we had to up and buy a bran spankin’ new refrigerator. Ouch.
Um…Hello, unexpected cost!! Didn’t see you coming!
The day our fridge died was the hottest of the year thus far.
107 degrees in the shade.
And 65 degrees in our freezer.
Not a good thing.
Our past year has been much like our past month, Unexpected: To date we’ve:
Replaced:
oven/stove, parts of our heater, our water heater, part of our fence, found a crack in the pipe under our house that must get repaired (not done yet), a big computer issue (read, would no longer turn on)
Paid and need to pay for:
a new master’s program, a new year of preschool, an upcoming vacation, and a myriad of other small unexpected expenses
Worked through:
a torn shoulder, a repaired shoulder, an almost vasectomy, an actual vasectomy, and most recently my grandma’s immanent death of ovarian cancer.
Wow. Just typing makes me want to curl up in the fetal position and suck my thumb.
I’m tired. And when I get tired, I retreat. When I retreat, I become a bad mom. When I’m a bad mom, I get angry. When I’m angry, I become a bad wife. And when I’m a bad wife, I become tired all. over. again.
On Thursday our family leaves for our first camping trip of the summer. And it couldn’t come at a better time. I hope to use my time to refocus on the important pieces of my life, (read: family and friends) and not sweat the huge glaring, pending CRAZINESS going on back an home small stuff. I hope to remind myself this to shall pass and some day we’ll look back on these years fondly as we remember how we relied on love burritos and cheap wine and not much more to raise our kids to the best of our ability.
Someday when my Master’s program is done, I’m back to work full time, and am armed with more knowledge and maturity, I’ll probably see that I didn’t have to have heart palpitations, weeks of anxiety, and sleepless nights worry as much as I did.
But for now, I’m in need of a few good vacations. And a whole lotta margarita!
First up: Our second annual camping trip with our good friends.
Second up: BlogHer BABY!! Hey Roomies!! So excited!
Third up: My dad’s conference. Where I not only hope to enjoy the pool, but also learn more about being a good leader.
Fourth up: An adult Caribbean vacation WITHOUT KIDS. people. without kids. (Thank you air miles and nice stimulus check!)
Fifth up: More camping with Hubby’s family.
Ya. So like I said, I’m in need of a vacation, or five.
Unusual Perspective said,
July 8, 2008 @ 11:06 pm
Umm… not sure that is what George W. had in mind for the stimulus check… that money needs to go into the US economy… so we will say the stimulus check went towards the fridge, and your hard work is going towards vacation, K? Don’t want to anger the Bush.
Michelle said,
July 8, 2008 @ 11:19 pm
You definitely need a vacation. In fact you need 5. And you need to take me with you! And can you clarify — what is wrong with frozen burritos and cheap wine.. how do you think we are paying for our “field of dreams”. And frankly, I thought heart palpitations, anxiety and lack of sleep were just what motherhood/wife-dome was about. Boy, I am losing touch with reality… why not add a 3rd baby. That will help.
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Jessica (It's my life...) said,
July 9, 2008 @ 8:55 am
Oh my! I’d better pack an extra bottle of wine or two for our big BlogHer extravaganza! Or maybe we need to find a way to schedule you in for a massage during that weekend!
Just keep reminding yourself that this is making you stronger and more resilient… or something. Hang tight! Relief is just around the corner!
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Lia said,
July 10, 2008 @ 7:34 am
Oh man, keep your head up! Enjoy yourself.
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