Tue 15 Jul 2008
Goodbye Grandma Bryan.
Posted by Nette @ Smiling Mom under Beginning and End, Giving Thanks, Grandparent's love
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Dear Grandma Bryan,
So writing this letter is pretty hard for me to do. Not because I don’t have fond memories, I do! But because I fear that I won’t be able to tell you eloquently enough just how much I love you and how grateful I am for the life I’ve had.
I have lived a very blessed life. A life filled with love, learning and acceptance. I have grown up with the benefit of having a two-parent household. And, amazingly enough, my parents have loved each other throughout the good and bad times. How lucky am I to have had this experience?
My mom is an amazing woman, a woman you reared. A woman who you single-handedly raised to be an adult. For this I am eternally grateful. When I look at you and your life, I see a woman who was forced into a life where you were required to become a single parent well before your time. You worked hard and raised three beautiful children who were, essentially, the same age. I can’t even imagine! But you did it! You did it all while working full time, paying a mortgage, and providing your children with the things they wanted and needed. I admire you so much for this. It must have been such a challenge at times to keep it all together.
I have vivid memories of Christmas Eve at your house from years ago. I remember all the cousins getting together to open presents, eat dinner, and play. (I always wanted to eat at the bar! But usually had to sit at the kid’s table) We use to have so much fun. I know this was a wonderful time in your memory as well, having your house filled with the sounds of laughter and family. One memory in particular that I have is when I received a huge Barbie head for a gift. This head was equipped with lots of makeup, a girls dream! So instead of the intended use, Barbie, I decided to make up myself, my clothes, the carpet, my cousins and just about anything I could find. Needless to say, the makeup disappeared from my Barbie head by the next morning.
Each Christmas Eve as we drove home, I remember watching the moon in the sky and searching for Santa’s sleigh. These are memories that I cherish each Christmas.
I also remember many days spent with you picking blackberries, peaches, and oranges. I loved playing on your jungle gym in the backyard and playing hide and seek with Jeff, Shauna, and Kathlyn.
But now, as I write you this letter, I’m holding my daughter, Ella, in my arms and realizing that it is because of you and the family you’ve created, that I am blessed with the life I have.
You have worked hard, so hard. You’ve lived a life filled with family, The Heavenly Father, and friends. You’ve created many knick-knacks to remember you by. Both my children have a blanket, made by you. And each holiday I take out my decorations, the porcelain Christmas tree, Halloween cat and hat, Easter bunnies, and think of you.
And when I speak my daughter’s name, Ella, I am reminded of my history, your mother, you.
Writing this letter is extremely hard. Time is never enough. I don’t feel like I’ve had enough time with you, and neither have my children. You, likewise, didn’t have enough time with Grandpa Bryan. But you will! You are about to embark on a whole new journey one filled with eternal love and happiness. For you, I’m excited. But for me, selfishly, I feel sad as our time together begins to come to an end.
I love you Grandma. I love you.
And I thank you so much for the life I’ve had. I have been so blessed.
With my love,
Nanette
